Lovaholic really is having a Quarter Life Crisis... (>_<)
Lovaholic is in a mess... So this post will be a mess too!!! *WARNS!*
My life is really a mess... I don't even know what I want... My so-called love thinks that I'm sickly and lazy (I admit I am lazy sometimes... not ALWAYS)...I tend to fall sick rather easily not knowing the reason even I did went for full-body checkup less than 6 months ago... I really want my health back... Without it, I can't do lots of stuff... I already doing something to my health... I take lots of "tonic" and some health supplements... No sight of getting rid of my weak self... Maybe my time is up soon... After what he told me that really breaks my heart... " I don't want a lazy and sickly gf"... My love no longer sees the important of me in his life... I'm dispensable... I'm far from mid-way of my degree course but I'm terribly broke... Still have around $13000 to pay for the school fees... Can't ask from my parents as I still have 2 younger siblings who they need to study... I want to take up Banking sales position (Which I want to do 2 years since then) but afraid I have no focus at the moment with my degree being the priority... My freelancing assignments can only allow me to survive with transportation and food... Right now, I'm finding some simple admin position to survive on... I simply have no close friend that I can turn to... My bond with them has been kinda broken... I got no idea where I can pour out my sorrows to... When I mentioned that we need to really plan for the so-called "future", it immediately turns from sour to bitter to even tasteless now... I simply urges him to find some thing productive (with bits of dollars and cents) since being a male, you can't just play games all day and your part-time degree course happens at night... I will stick to you (which I did for a good 6 years already) but we really need to do something at this period of our age.... I don't want to look back next time when I'm in my 30s and realise that I have waste my youth over NOTHING...
What I simply need now is your understanding, support and care... Is it that tough?!
Sobbing away,
Lovaholic Vienne
My life is really a mess... I don't even know what I want... My so-called love thinks that I'm sickly and lazy (I admit I am lazy sometimes... not ALWAYS)...I tend to fall sick rather easily not knowing the reason even I did went for full-body checkup less than 6 months ago... I really want my health back... Without it, I can't do lots of stuff... I already doing something to my health... I take lots of "tonic" and some health supplements... No sight of getting rid of my weak self... Maybe my time is up soon... After what he told me that really breaks my heart... " I don't want a lazy and sickly gf"... My love no longer sees the important of me in his life... I'm dispensable... I'm far from mid-way of my degree course but I'm terribly broke... Still have around $13000 to pay for the school fees... Can't ask from my parents as I still have 2 younger siblings who they need to study... I want to take up Banking sales position (Which I want to do 2 years since then) but afraid I have no focus at the moment with my degree being the priority... My freelancing assignments can only allow me to survive with transportation and food... Right now, I'm finding some simple admin position to survive on... I simply have no close friend that I can turn to... My bond with them has been kinda broken... I got no idea where I can pour out my sorrows to... When I mentioned that we need to really plan for the so-called "future", it immediately turns from sour to bitter to even tasteless now... I simply urges him to find some thing productive (with bits of dollars and cents) since being a male, you can't just play games all day and your part-time degree course happens at night... I will stick to you (which I did for a good 6 years already) but we really need to do something at this period of our age.... I don't want to look back next time when I'm in my 30s and realise that I have waste my youth over NOTHING...
What I simply need now is your understanding, support and care... Is it that tough?!
Sobbing away,
Lovaholic Vienne
Labels: Life oh life ooh life, Relationship
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