Lovaholic really is having a Quarter Life Crisis... (>_<)

Lovaholic is in a mess... So this post will be a mess too!!! *WARNS!*

My life is really a mess... I don't even know what I want... My so-called love thinks that I'm sickly and lazy (I admit I am lazy sometimes... not ALWAYS)...I tend to fall sick rather easily not knowing the reason even I did went for full-body checkup less than 6 months ago... I really want my health back... Without it, I can't do lots of stuff... I already doing something to my health... I take lots of "tonic" and some health supplements... No sight of getting rid of my weak self... Maybe my time is up soon... After what he told me that really breaks my heart... " I don't want a lazy and sickly gf"... My love no longer sees the important of me in his life... I'm dispensable... I'm far from mid-way of my degree course but I'm terribly broke... Still have around $13000 to pay for the school fees... Can't ask from my parents as I still have 2 younger siblings who they need to study... I want to take up Banking sales position (Which I want to do 2 years since then) but afraid I have no focus at the moment with my degree being the priority... My freelancing assignments can only allow me to survive with transportation and food... Right now, I'm finding some simple admin position to survive on... I simply have no close friend that I can turn to... My bond with them has been kinda broken... I got no idea where I can pour out my sorrows to... When I mentioned that we need to really plan for the so-called "future", it immediately turns from sour to bitter to even tasteless now... I simply urges him to find some thing productive (with bits of dollars and cents) since being a male, you can't just play games all day and your part-time degree course happens at night... I will stick to you (which I did for a good 6 years already) but we really need to do something at this period of our age.... I don't want to look back next time when I'm in my 30s and realise that I have waste my youth over NOTHING...

What I simply need now is your understanding, support and care... Is it that tough?!



Sobbing away,
Lovaholic Vienne

Lovaholic's Surprise for her Honezzz!!! (^_^)

Lovaholic decides to give her love a small surprise as this guy deserves it!!!

Lovaholic has owe her man lots!!! But her man has give her hundreds and one types of gift and stuff whenever she requested... Well, for most of the times, her crave for certain items are "de-crave" by this man... (x_@)

I've got to do something about it as I have been in DEBTS with presents for my dear Honezzz aka Significant Other (SO ---> Sound like "As*Hol* thou. Sometimes, he is and I wanna struggle him!!! WaHooHoo!) since last year for almost every important occasions i.e. Valentines, Anniversary, Christmas and even his Birthday!!! I know you must be thinking that I'm a bad girlfriend but after so many years together I give him what I could (watches, wallets, shirts and more shirts)... BUT.... I do write cards for him for every occasions!!! *Give my own shoulder a pat! AHEM!*


Here's his surprise:


TaDaaa!!! Wrapped in the color of LOVE, Red!!!



Mystery reveal ---> Braun's Cruzer 2!!!! In (orange) red too!


Got my love this as he was complaining about his conventional shaver giving him bumps and blemishes!!! This is his first Electronic Shaver!!! I pick Braun's as this brand can be trusted thou I'm not sure how good it is!!! For this model, its not too cheapo and not too expensive thou.... *Rolling eyes* (@_@)

Hope my SO will loves it when he comes back from duty later today!!! (.n_n.)


He got his Surprise!!!


My Honezzz got his surprise and he happily opens it!!!


He's back from his duty!!! Glad that he finds it useful and it bring a smile to his face... (v_v)





Another reason for gift,
Lovaholic Vienne (^_^)

Lovaholic attended Batch Girl Claudia's Wedding!!! (^_^)

Lovaholic got to attend her SIA batch girl, Claudia's wedding on 12th July 2007 (Thurday) at Swissotel Merchant Court!!! *Feeling blissful for her!!!* (^_^)

Another VERY LATE POST!!! *smashing herself!!!*

This can be consider as my first time attending a friend's wedding!!! *Oh Weeee!!!*

Pics Pics!!!


Batch 819 (part of) reunion!!!
(From LEFT to RIGHT: Serene, Denise, Shan Shan, Jane, Charis, Penny & me)


Serene Dear & me!!! My bestie during training. She's still enjoys walking in the clouds... (^_^)


Before dinner starts...
- SITTING (From LEFT TO RIGHT): Vera, Serene, Me & Shan Shan.
- STANDING (From LEFT TO RIGHT): Denise, Jasmine, Charis, Shan Shan, Jane & Penny.


Group Pic!!! The blissful couple behind.... (^_^)


Before I left.... With the blissful bride!!! Okay, I looked "Plastic"!!!! She got one SEXY BACK!!! *Blowing whistle at her* (@_@)



Ohh!!! I am feeling so over the clouds just by looking at the pictures of Claudia's wedding!!! Feeling so happy for her.... In fact, I always feel happy (with a tinge of blessfulness) after attending any weddings!!! It makes me wanna follow my dream of becoming a wedding planner but then no luck so far...Tired of sending emails with no reply.... *Sob Sob* (~_~")

It was also great to see my batch girls once again!!! They still looking great and doing well!!! Miss those days where we were still training!!! A class of 20 beauties with no Stewards!!! Wahaha!!! *Damn* (@_@)

If I get lucky, I will OPEN MY OWN WEDDING PLANNER CORP!!! *Daydreaming.....again*




Feel bliss by attending weddings,
Lovaholic Vienne *Kisses & Hugs* (^_^)

Lovaholic losing faith in love... (T_T)

Lovaholic losing her faith to believe in love...

Love such a short sweet word but some how it represents something so great that everyone wants to get hold of it...

But do you hold on to it and treasure in years to come and will you be able to say that you have truly loved with no regrets? I believe in love and it turns its head to me...

I believe something that started out as the most bittest things you ever tasted will definitely give the sweetest returns... but for a invisible medium such as love gives you the sweetest begining and will definitely give you the bittest return... well not all the times... there are still many lucky ones!!! (^_^)

Do you tell yourself to hug and love the person next to you every second of your life or do you lost the hug and love for the person next to you with every passing second?!

When you say the 3 magical words, do you mean it till your life ends or just for that moment?

If love can be measure, how do you measure it with? Physically we can't.... How about how much freedom you give to your love ones and how supportive are you? (!_!)

I am still finding my way back into love...




My most love piece of art.... Raphael Angels... Also one of my deepest regrets in life... for not finding the REAL piece while I was at Rome. ("_")





Years together = Amount of love lost,
Lovaholic Vienne

Lovaholic "Where are you now?"

Lovaholic knows that this post will anger my dear SO (=_=').... Apologies... my dear....

WARNING: THIS WILL BE A BORING ONE!!!

I don't know how I should start writing.... (>_<)

I miss you....

I was watching Taiwan Drama - Angel Lovers.... Then.... someone came into my thoughts...

I believe that everyone would still remember who gave you your first ever fastest heartbeat... so fast that you almost faint... Making you blush like a red apple... Stumble when you want to speak...I am talking about first crush... (*^_^*)

Crush... Someone that you like... but most of the times.... It ended nowhere... It was a history... a memorable part of my life... but still in a very small corner of my heart.... the sweetness still linger when I think about it...

Mine happened during Secondary School... And it was my only crush *Blush*

It happened at a time that I least expected.... Then.... My heart was locked with a vow I made.... Persistent is the key to my heart...

Now, we have the love of our lives and life goes on....

Thank you for the lovely memories....


Believe in Fate... It will bring you to places,
Lovaholic Vienne (^_^)

Oh mine?!

Look at my dear friend blog entry:

"Now then i realise that best friends also cant really be trusted... in front of you they looked very nice to you... but yet behind your back they can say alot of bad things of you... and even wrote thru internet where all ppl can access to it... Haix.. why must be like that? Not happy of you can tell you out front de ma.. but i didnt do anythin wrong ***.. plus the name Vivian is not being Trademark.. Plus i only used it in my work, for biz purposes... and dun tell me that all outside ppl call Vivian is copy you la... My Fav Colour all along is Pink colour... but only sometime i tend to try out others colour whether it suit me ant.. Plus i do not like dirty green... I like Lime green(bright Colour)...This is also call copy cat? then you used pink colour stuff is copy me? Plus i just like to do research on the diff facial center and Spas outlet... of cos is ask u la... u so kwn hw to enjoy life... dun ask u ask whoever? if you really mind so much... then next time i dun ask you lo... tot that girls normally exchange tips on shoppin and beauty...I knw i am not a pretty gal so i dun fit to be your frenz... "

I never edit her blog entry...

For the fact, after I realise all the incidents which is so recently, that I behave "normally" never too nice nor too fierce (as I think it is still not to the extend for this kind of emotion).

If you are Vivian and I know you from the start as Vivian, of course, I will accept she is vivian (common name) but then when I know you... You are PX or Rainie... (=_=)

Because I like green you like another tone of green at the same time (For your information, I once loved Green as I have a Crush on someone who wore Green some years back... which for now I don't love green anymore...even though my SO needs to wear all the time... ) *seeing stars*

I love my name for the fact the name is so me after going thru numerous of Name Bible!!! I know how to enjoy life because I love my life (Do you know the meaning of your NAME when you give yourself the same name as me? SMS me if you know immediately without finding thru the internet) Even before I managed to find all the nice places for my indugles, I have made all the research by myself.... trials and errors.... till I got the best.... I can share only to a certain extend... didn't I tell you the Kovan Facial lady? You pick your style... I will give you my advises... I give advises as before and as always but dun copy my style as it is very personal and individual to me...

I been friends with you for 6 years... If you are not pretty, why didn't I get away from you from the start? I pick my friends by characters not by looks... Not gorgeous but great characteristics appeals to me, that's what matters the most!!! And I believe in FATE as what my religion tells me so... I am a Buddhist (^_^)

My blog name is "CONFESSIONS OF A LOVAHOLIC"... Tell me a color that represent LOVE? Immediately you will tell me is PINK or RED... But can you find RED in the basic template? (Please tell me if you can find it at Blogspot... I hate the overedited stuff at blogskins.com so I will stick to basic unless I hire a Professional to do my blog which is not necessary at all as I don't mind for now (^_^)

Well, I am never right nor wrong but if you need explanations...look up there... fact is fact... accuse is accuse.... here you go... all up there!!


LOVE or HATE me,
Lovaholic Vienne (I always love my life :P)

Hateholic HATES COPYCATS and it turns our to be your Good Close Friend!!! (>_<)

Hateholic simply can't understand why some people like to copy especially GOOD FRIEND!!!

I have got this close friend of mine for 6 years.... since poly we are quite close.... I didn't realise the seriousness of the issues then... But for NOW, here's the details:

1) I give myself an english (french form) name (VIVIENNE) that I like since 13 and use it intensely (officially) since I got to work during my O levels holidays till now (23 years old)... all my friends after my secondary school call me that.... (^_^)

So, all my dear classmates from POLY, also my close friend, know and call me that.... Whereas she was known as RAINIE (Not use regularly but all our close friends know about it) or Peixuan (PX) then.... I don't know what 's wrong with her after she started working as an insurance agent (her 2nd or 3rd job) she printed her name as VIVIAN (pronounced the same way commonly but ENGLISH FORM) too instead of Rainie on her namecards!!! I am like shock and whenever she introduce me she will say this " Oh, this is my friend also known as Vivian"!!! I'm so angry and feel like bashing her most of the times... (>_<)

She didn't even tell us (our common group of gal pals) when she decided to use the same English name as mine (in another Spelling)... And she keeps on saying this "All Vivians are pretty!!!" I just can't swallow it and will reply "BUT HOW ABOUT YOU??!!"

She even tried to call me my chinese name, HUI XXXX in smses (normally she state "Vivi" or "Vien") so that she can omit the fact that I am known as Vivienne!! (~_~)

2) Above is just a small part of her actions.... Another common friend of ours (PX know her for a long time before I get to know her), told me recently that she actually started copying me since way back early poly days.... She quoted me an example about how PX wannabe me: All my dearies know that I loved GREEN in poly and I got a lot of tops in Green then.... And it was not her fave color and she was never into green but into some other colors... This PX suddenly told her during a shopping trip that she like GREEN too!!! (-_-")

3) Now, she will always asked me things like where I go for Facials and Spas... Scan me up & down on the attire/shoes that I wear when I meet her.... Ask me where I got this and that.... I hate that!!!

Can't she has her own style or fashion sense?!!

CAN YOU (PX) STOP COPYING FOR GOD'S SAKE!!!



Hate Copycats,
Hateholic Vienne (>_<)

HEART-BROKEN!!! (T_T)

I'm super heart -broken today.... Just after the "phone- calling" issue.... he give me shit again.... this time he physically hurt me.... Long post...

I'm so stupid when I think back..... Please smash some sense into me!

Yesterday, he was supposed to have half day off.... called me at about 10.22am and told me he going out from his camp and will call me when he is at the bottom of the hill.... I was zzzz and pick up his call... thou, I am a bit blur but I CONFIRM that he did said "OKAY" when I asked him whether I need to meet him at his house area nearest MRT... I tried to call him before I went out from my house at about 11.30am but he never answer even after numerous times I called him.... I called all the way from my house till I reach his area MRT... I thought he may be sleeping in the bus... as he never picked up and silly me waited for almost 2 hours at the MRT station... Still can't get him.... I went to his house straight and saw him sleeping SOUNDLY!!! His phone is on the floor in vibration mode.... and when I checked I give him 76 missed calls....

If its happened anyone, of course, you will get angry right?! I understand that he is tired since he was staying in camp overnite for days and need to wake up at 4am but how can he let me wait and never called me even before he took the bus (maybe cab) home... I tried to wake him up by tickling him but he reacted so FIERCEFULLY that he leaves marks grabbing both my wrist.... we are like fighting (for the 1st time)... He practically shouted at me and even said he never ask me at all to meet him!! He even shouted " You dun think I will not beat girls hor!! I will beat you hor!!"

I was traumatised!!! Never image and never in my 3 years plus with him that he is such bad-temper jerk!!!

I went to check-in at East Coast resort and initially wanted to stay overnight but abandon the ideal since the room was scary.... called my gfs but all will be arriving late for me.... So I check-out after crying from about 2pm till about 6pm in the room.... wasted $128 for the room thou....

I took his phone by mistake (since all black) and I waited for him to call (using his house's phone) but he never called me at all till I checked with his little sister that he was sleeping SOUNDLY at about 8pm... I think he don't even care at all He only called me after the sister's many attempts to wake him up.... And still not admitting that he called me... we fight over the phone... asking me to go over his house.... and the useless me went over thinking that I only want to return his phone (it was important to him as all his man need to find him or camp works).... But we fought again.... same.... he grabbed my wrists and threw me to the floor when I tried to remove his blanket from his head.... left me with marks on my arms and even nearly fracture my elbow again....

He dun feel sorry at all..... I stayed at his place till now I'm at home...

What should I do... break-up with him? I know i deserve better and I dun want to give any reasons since he can treat me like that... it shows that love has fade away.... *crying*

Lovaholic knows that she is blissful when....

Lovaholic feel a sudden blissfulness yesterday night...

It was really a long time since I have this feeling.... The last time was when my SO (Significant Other) said he loves me during the beginning stage of our relationship which is like 3 years back.... (^_^)

Yesterday, I was lying on bed with my SO watching TV (purely that hehe)... He gave me a sudden tight hug.... I felt ohhh sooo blissful!!! *blushing*

It was never easy to maintain our first love till now (3 years... neither very long nor very short... ) when initally I thought this will be like any relationship where easy come and easy go.... I was wronged most of the times.... No matter how many times we have disagreements and even on the verge of breaking up.... We managed to pull through with some tiffs (who don't have ?) (@_@)

Well, I really don't know how long this bliss can last but can only hope that all goes well and we can proceed to the next stage despite his untidiness *arghhhh!!!* I will get a maid then *wahahaha!*


Blissfully in love,
Lovaholic Love (^_^)

Lovaholic's Lovable Pal bathing in bliss....

Lovaholic got to meet up with her Lovables pal today - Sze Sze & PX (^_^)

Catch up with my lovables today at Marina Square's Changing Appetite restaurant then Pacific Cafe!!! (>_<) Great news from our dear PX!!! :D

PX IS ATTACHED!!!

We are all so happy for her as I believe (according to intuition) that this time this guy will give her a more blissful love life than her passerbys.... Thou, we have yet to meet up with PX's guy (Okay okay..... It will be tomorrow for dinner @ Balcony/Marche Orchard!!!) but from her blissful smile and sweetness tone it was easy to detect that this guy is better than her previous plus treat her best compare to the passerbys of her life....

Sze and Meeeeee are sooo excited as we gonna put up a "intense" chat with him during our first meeting cum dinner!!!

Well, I will try to update about the "event"!!! *Wahahaha*


The Journey of Love has just begin.....



Stay Bissful pal (^.^),
Lovaholic Vienne

Lovaholic got to dream.... on other cotters' marriage proposals (*_*)

Lovaholic surf COZYCOT (CC), a forum "where beautiful minds meet" that is base in Singapore, almost everyday but this particular day she will need to blog it down!!!

I told myself "I have to blog this down!!!" when I came across a thread named "DAILY RAVE", where the "Cotters (users)" will RAVE -tell about pleasant things, about matters to them which is especially HAPPY, TOUCH and etc.

Today is the first time that I really READ thru the thread :P It brings to my notice that most of the cotters rave about *smile* their wedding proposals!!!

Ooo!! While I was drooling over the amazing stuff cotters wrote on the thread, Lovaholic was almost touched (as in a guy goes to such an extend where many complicated process are involve) to tears for some of the AMAZING things that a guy can do when they proposal to the woman that they really want to spend their entire life with!!! To many gals, (including the dreamy, romance-seeker Pisces Lovaholic (me)), she will think that with a nice xx carats diamond ring and bouquets of ROSES, it will be a perfect situation where "Yes!!" will be said.... but... PLEASE THINK AGAIN!!!

Cotters proudly stated that their Significant Others (SO) can go as far as spending near thousand dollars for just a bouquet of 99 red roses!!! Not just 1 cotter but a handful of cotters received 99 roses during their proposals (I will expect mine to be 9999 roses!! *evil grin*). Some SO even goes as far as to learn to bake a nice CHOCOLATE FERRERO ROCCE proposal cake for their love and some even write their very first poem just to declare love!!! AMAZING, isn't it?! (>_<)

Well, pictures prove it all!!!


(Picture: Taken from a Cotter's uploaded pic)
This is how a 99 roses looks like!!! (O_O)


(Picture: Taken from a Cotter's uploaded pic)
Another Cotter's 99 proposal roses!!


(Picture: Taken from a Cotter's uploaded pic)
A Cotter's SO DIY love poem :)


Lovaholic couldn't help but wonder is this really the revolution of a new century where "Will you marry me?" becomes such a delicate process in life that a guy actually becomes such a sensitive species so as to hear a "Yes" ? (0_o)

If this is really the case, we should consider ourselves the BLESSED species (*_*)

Lovaholic hopes she is blessed with that kind of LUCK too!!! *secretly thinking*



Women all dream for that particular moment to come... (^_^)
Lovaholic Vienne